Thursday, October 23, 2003
today was going so well.. but idk what happened... i went around town with kennys mom, my mom, and kenny trying to find places to sell donuts, and i was having a good time, but for some stupid reason i kept talking back to my mom.. and thats REALLY not how i want Kennys mom to see me. usually im nice and polite around parents, cuz thats how i learned to be, but idk.. and i felt terrible. i realized that i was being kind of a brat and i tried to calm down, but then everything out of my mouth sounded rude. usually i dont care when im a brat to my mom, cuz shes really bothering me lately, but idk. i guess i really care how his mom thinks of me. im not like that. im not a selfish brat, im just going through a hard time with my mom. but she doesnt know that, so his mom, and him probly think im an idiot. anyways, that made my day not too good. and also, my daddy keeps coughing so bad that i have to close my door. i am so scared for him. i hope he doesnt have to go into the hospital or anything.
.. saturday the girls arent running the race cuz theres too many of us hurt. im a little bummed about that, cuz i need and want to start running again. and ive been looking forward to that race for a long time now. but since im not going that means i can spend the night at corys house! yay.. shes turning 11!
..one thing that made my day good was that i got to talk to nazlee about stuff.. we kinda sorted through problems, and now i feel better. im glad she was willing to listen.
oh also on saturday its my 2 month anniversary with kenny, but i think i already said that last time i wrote in this thing.. well anyways, i hope we get to do something together..
well, thats all for today.. but ill write later..
xOxO..SaNdRa*
.. saturday the girls arent running the race cuz theres too many of us hurt. im a little bummed about that, cuz i need and want to start running again. and ive been looking forward to that race for a long time now. but since im not going that means i can spend the night at corys house! yay.. shes turning 11!
..one thing that made my day good was that i got to talk to nazlee about stuff.. we kinda sorted through problems, and now i feel better. im glad she was willing to listen.
oh also on saturday its my 2 month anniversary with kenny, but i think i already said that last time i wrote in this thing.. well anyways, i hope we get to do something together..
well, thats all for today.. but ill write later..
xOxO..SaNdRa*
Tuesday, October 21, 2003
woah, i havent wrote in this for a long time...
well, my daddy has pneumonia :-( .. and when i told people, everyone told me a story of someone they knew that died from it. hes caughing a lot, and it keeps me up at night. hes had a crazy high fever for over a week also..
another thing is that i havent run for almost 2 weeks! i want to run again SO bad! my doctor told me to stay out til today, but coach said that hes gunna keep me on the bike for a few more days. i really want to run mt sac. i hope he lets me.
on saturday its my 2 month anniversary with kenny. i know that not super long, but it still feels kool. it doesnt feel like its been 2 months. IM REALLY HAPPY WITH HIM!
well.. my sister has to use the computer.. so ill write later if i think of anything else to say..
xOxO..SaNdRa*
well, my daddy has pneumonia :-( .. and when i told people, everyone told me a story of someone they knew that died from it. hes caughing a lot, and it keeps me up at night. hes had a crazy high fever for over a week also..
another thing is that i havent run for almost 2 weeks! i want to run again SO bad! my doctor told me to stay out til today, but coach said that hes gunna keep me on the bike for a few more days. i really want to run mt sac. i hope he lets me.
on saturday its my 2 month anniversary with kenny. i know that not super long, but it still feels kool. it doesnt feel like its been 2 months. IM REALLY HAPPY WITH HIM!
well.. my sister has to use the computer.. so ill write later if i think of anything else to say..
xOxO..SaNdRa*
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
1.WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? Sandra Kay Sloan
2. WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? Blue Flannel pjs
3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? The Used
4. WHAT ARE THE LAST 4 DIGITS OF YOUR PHONE NUMBER? 7696
5. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Kit Kat
6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Yellow!
7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? Idk, ive been inside too long
8. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Cory... but then Vince got on and talked a little about some pictures.
9. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? Eyes.. then muscles!
10. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS? I stole it from Kelly, who stole it from Cathy, and yeah, I like them both.
11. HOW ARE YOU TODAY? Really good
12. FAVORITE DRINK? Cran-grape juice
13. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? I dunno.. I don’t drink
14. FAVORITE SPORTS? I hate sports! Cept running. And I really like gymnastics, but I suk.
15. HAIR COLOR? Brown
16. EYE COLOR? Green
17. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? No
18. SIBLINGS AND THEIR AGE? I have an older sister named Jamie and shes 21
19. FAVORITE MONTH? April
20. FAVORITE FOOD? Type:Mexican..actual food:eggs and broccoli
21. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? In theaters..matchstick men. At home.. Breakfast Club.
22. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? My birthday!
23. FAVORITE BAND? The used. I also like Yes.
24. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? Not at all. I just don’t think its appropriate for the girl.
25. FAVORITE SONG? Noise and Kisses by Used and Drift Away by Dobie Gray..oo and Long Distance by Yes
26. SUMMER OR WINTER? Winter
27. HUGS OR KISSES? Hugs..
28. RELATIONSHIPS OR CASUAL DATING? Relationships for sure.
29. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? Vanilla
30. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK? ..?uhm, yeah, guess so.
31. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? .. respond to what?
32. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? dido
34. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? Missys Murder
35. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? The beatles, but its all cracked and old, I need a new one.
36.WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT? I don’t remember
37. FAVORITE SMELLS? AXE! New cars, and permanent marker.
39. WHAT INSPIRES YOU? Kenny with his running and never ending awesomeness.
40. BUTTERED, PLAIN, OR SALTED POPCORN? Salted and buttered
41. FAVORITE CAR? 350z convertible
42. FAVORITE FLOWER? Hibiscus.
43. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING? tWo
44. FAVORITE DAY(s) OF THE WEEK? Wednesday.
45. BEEN IN A CAR ACCIDENT? No
46. BIRTHDAY? August 10th, 1989
47. RED OR WHITE WINE? Dunno..
48. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY? Went to the beach, and my ranch with Brittany, Cory, and my favorite Lompocian, EMILY!
49. ARE YOU OPTIMISTIC OR PESSIMISTIC? I think im pretty optimistic, it bothers me when people can never be happy with something. I always try to find something good.
50. WHAT ARE YOUR LIFETIME GOALS? .uhm.. I want to go to Scotland.
51. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? Ooh.. time for running.. AGAIN!
..........................................................................................
Look in my eyes.
Im jaded now, whatever that means.
By sharing these things, i rip my heart out.
Its worth my time, whatever that means.
Soo.. Share with me, cuz i need it right now.
Let me see your insides.
Or write me off..
Cuz id rather starve now, if you wont open up.
Give it to me.
Give me all, whatever you want.
Its never been me to want this much.
From you i can see.
..........................................................................................
today was a really good day!
we had like no practice... i was really ready to run today though, but then when i tried, everyone made fun of me and said i looked like a chicken. lol.. then we had a minimum day, and kenny came over. and brittany, and robert... i got some color changing markers from Rite Aid, and theyre so koooool! then.. after my parents got home, me, shannon, kenny, his mom, and my mom went to try to pre-sale some donuts, but the stupid people didnt buy them. .. wut losers!..
well, thats pretty much all that happened today, i have to go do homework! later gator..
..AnDi**
2. WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? Blue Flannel pjs
3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? The Used
4. WHAT ARE THE LAST 4 DIGITS OF YOUR PHONE NUMBER? 7696
5. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Kit Kat
6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Yellow!
7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? Idk, ive been inside too long
8. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Cory... but then Vince got on and talked a little about some pictures.
9. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? Eyes.. then muscles!
10. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS? I stole it from Kelly, who stole it from Cathy, and yeah, I like them both.
11. HOW ARE YOU TODAY? Really good
12. FAVORITE DRINK? Cran-grape juice
13. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? I dunno.. I don’t drink
14. FAVORITE SPORTS? I hate sports! Cept running. And I really like gymnastics, but I suk.
15. HAIR COLOR? Brown
16. EYE COLOR? Green
17. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? No
18. SIBLINGS AND THEIR AGE? I have an older sister named Jamie and shes 21
19. FAVORITE MONTH? April
20. FAVORITE FOOD? Type:Mexican..actual food:eggs and broccoli
21. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? In theaters..matchstick men. At home.. Breakfast Club.
22. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? My birthday!
23. FAVORITE BAND? The used. I also like Yes.
24. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? Not at all. I just don’t think its appropriate for the girl.
25. FAVORITE SONG? Noise and Kisses by Used and Drift Away by Dobie Gray..oo and Long Distance by Yes
26. SUMMER OR WINTER? Winter
27. HUGS OR KISSES? Hugs..
28. RELATIONSHIPS OR CASUAL DATING? Relationships for sure.
29. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? Vanilla
30. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK? ..?uhm, yeah, guess so.
31. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? .. respond to what?
32. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? dido
34. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? Missys Murder
35. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? The beatles, but its all cracked and old, I need a new one.
36.WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT? I don’t remember
37. FAVORITE SMELLS? AXE! New cars, and permanent marker.
39. WHAT INSPIRES YOU? Kenny with his running and never ending awesomeness.
40. BUTTERED, PLAIN, OR SALTED POPCORN? Salted and buttered
41. FAVORITE CAR? 350z convertible
42. FAVORITE FLOWER? Hibiscus.
43. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING? tWo
44. FAVORITE DAY(s) OF THE WEEK? Wednesday.
45. BEEN IN A CAR ACCIDENT? No
46. BIRTHDAY? August 10th, 1989
47. RED OR WHITE WINE? Dunno..
48. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY? Went to the beach, and my ranch with Brittany, Cory, and my favorite Lompocian, EMILY!
49. ARE YOU OPTIMISTIC OR PESSIMISTIC? I think im pretty optimistic, it bothers me when people can never be happy with something. I always try to find something good.
50. WHAT ARE YOUR LIFETIME GOALS? .uhm.. I want to go to Scotland.
51. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? Ooh.. time for running.. AGAIN!
..........................................................................................
Look in my eyes.
Im jaded now, whatever that means.
By sharing these things, i rip my heart out.
Its worth my time, whatever that means.
Soo.. Share with me, cuz i need it right now.
Let me see your insides.
Or write me off..
Cuz id rather starve now, if you wont open up.
Give it to me.
Give me all, whatever you want.
Its never been me to want this much.
From you i can see.
..........................................................................................
today was a really good day!
we had like no practice... i was really ready to run today though, but then when i tried, everyone made fun of me and said i looked like a chicken. lol.. then we had a minimum day, and kenny came over. and brittany, and robert... i got some color changing markers from Rite Aid, and theyre so koooool! then.. after my parents got home, me, shannon, kenny, his mom, and my mom went to try to pre-sale some donuts, but the stupid people didnt buy them. .. wut losers!..
well, thats pretty much all that happened today, i have to go do homework! later gator..
..AnDi**
Monday, October 06, 2003
hEy..
today was pretty good. the work out this morning was tuff but i liked it, and i understood why we did it. i found out that im not a good sprinter. after practice, we had an ice bath, and i think it felt really good. i was the last one to take it, so everyone had already left, and Mr and Mrs Wetzel were being really nice to me. they told me that i was exactly where they want me, and im doing really well. it made me feel good cuz i was kinda bummed since i didnt do so well. My leg is REALLY hurting me though, i hope it gets better before our next race, cuz i really want to run this one. Member how i said that only my dad was supporting me in running? well... hes not any more. i dont know what happened but now hes telling me that i need to push harder cuz i have to stay on varsity. but before he was always saying that it didnt matter to him who i run with, hes proud of me no matter what. i guess im just running for my self now. and kenny too i guess, cuz i feel like hes disappointed in me when i dont do well. like i mean, he doesnt say it or act that way, i guess its just cuz hes a really good runner, and i feel stupid when i do badly. i feel like hes ashamed or something.. its weird.
The rest of the day was pretty much the same as every other day, but nothing really went wrong. i got annoyed by a lot of stuff though.
My mom and i arent really getting along that well... i usually tell her everything, but i dont feel like i can anymore. shes bothering me a lot. shes so pushy with the whole cross country thing, its driving me crazy. she has to be in with everything and always help out, and she is pushing me a lot, and i feel like i have to do excellent or else she'll be disappointed. i think its cuz she wanted to be in cross country when she was my age, but she never went out for it, and she regrets it now. its like im living her dream kinda.
oh yeah, and one more thing...My house smells like hair dye and i have no clue why, but everywhere i go, i can smell it.
well.. ill write later.
love always.. SaNdRa*
today was pretty good. the work out this morning was tuff but i liked it, and i understood why we did it. i found out that im not a good sprinter. after practice, we had an ice bath, and i think it felt really good. i was the last one to take it, so everyone had already left, and Mr and Mrs Wetzel were being really nice to me. they told me that i was exactly where they want me, and im doing really well. it made me feel good cuz i was kinda bummed since i didnt do so well. My leg is REALLY hurting me though, i hope it gets better before our next race, cuz i really want to run this one. Member how i said that only my dad was supporting me in running? well... hes not any more. i dont know what happened but now hes telling me that i need to push harder cuz i have to stay on varsity. but before he was always saying that it didnt matter to him who i run with, hes proud of me no matter what. i guess im just running for my self now. and kenny too i guess, cuz i feel like hes disappointed in me when i dont do well. like i mean, he doesnt say it or act that way, i guess its just cuz hes a really good runner, and i feel stupid when i do badly. i feel like hes ashamed or something.. its weird.
The rest of the day was pretty much the same as every other day, but nothing really went wrong. i got annoyed by a lot of stuff though.
My mom and i arent really getting along that well... i usually tell her everything, but i dont feel like i can anymore. shes bothering me a lot. shes so pushy with the whole cross country thing, its driving me crazy. she has to be in with everything and always help out, and she is pushing me a lot, and i feel like i have to do excellent or else she'll be disappointed. i think its cuz she wanted to be in cross country when she was my age, but she never went out for it, and she regrets it now. its like im living her dream kinda.
oh yeah, and one more thing...My house smells like hair dye and i have no clue why, but everywhere i go, i can smell it.
well.. ill write later.
love always.. SaNdRa*
Friday, October 03, 2003
hey everyone!..
soo..Cross Country.. its been pretty much a pain, just cuz im really unmotivated. i really do try though, and it just bum's me out when i get back to school and Mrs. Wetzels yelling at me telling me that i need to work harder. then i go home and tell my mom about everything and she says.. "well, honey, maybe your just not made for that. maybe your not good enough to be on varsity." ... my dad seems to be the only one that understands me. Lady Wetzel and my mom are just like well.. stay up with them, problem solved. but thats not how it works! i still like it and everything, but idk.. its hard to always come in last when we're at practice. and i think that splitting up the varsity with everyone else isnt that good cuz that makes us less of a team. and my leg is bothering me a lot. im walking around skool limping and everyone looks at me like im some sort of retard.
.. another thing thats been hard for me lately is like keeping faith in God. i havent been able to go to church much lately cuz on wednesdays i just have too much hw, and on saturdays, i have races, and i get really tired. but not going to church is not the problem...and neither is peer pressure. im not getting much of that. i like having the reputation of having God in my life. The problem is my family.. they dont encourage me to go to church at all, they rather me just not. and my mom only thinks i look cute when im dressed like a hoe. its soo annoying. i mean, i can keep faith, cuz i know what my goal is in life. i know my morals and values, and im gunna follow them, i just wish my family was behind me, encouraging me. you know?
and then i was talking to Robbyn while we were running, and she and i have the same religion and beliefs, so i like talking to her about stuff. but she was talking to me about being in a relationship... and she was saying that she doesnt really understand why people our age are even in relationships, cuz really the whole point is to date the person that you would want to marry, and course we're not seriously thinking about that at our age, so idk. and she asked me if it would be hard for me to break up with Kenny and of course my responce was YES. but then she says that you know, if it would be hard for me to let go of a relationship then in her mind that means that i might have to requestion my faith, cuz its a sign of not being able to let go of worldly things. i completely understand what shes trying to say, but im not sure if i agree..i think Kenny and i have a wholesome relationship, and i like that. i like that he doesnt pressure me into things, and i just dont have to worry with him. i can make it known that im a Christian and not feel uncomfortable. so what exactly would be the point of breaking up with him? why couldnt i be happy with him, and be a good Christian at the same time? any ways.. things like that are stressing me out a little.
well.. onto today..
today was good all in all.. but when i got home it kinda stunk. i wanted to go somewhere with Brittany cuz we havent done much together lately, and then i forgot that i promised my dad that i would go out to dinner with him.. so then i had to call her and say i couldnt do anything..so i go out with my dad and when i get home she invited me to the homecoming game, and i was all excited cuz i really really wanted to go, but i was trying to find someone who would go with me.. but then my dad told me no because i might get home late and i need sleep cuz i have a race tomorrow. but, wutever.
and tomorrows the homecoming dance.. I REALLY WANTED TO GO! but i had to get concert tickets for the same freakin day! but oh well.. im going to the concert with Kenny, so at least ill be with him, and we'll have another chance to go to a dance together... this concerts kinda a one in a lifetime chance.
well.. thats all for today..
xOxO..SaNdRa*
soo..Cross Country.. its been pretty much a pain, just cuz im really unmotivated. i really do try though, and it just bum's me out when i get back to school and Mrs. Wetzels yelling at me telling me that i need to work harder. then i go home and tell my mom about everything and she says.. "well, honey, maybe your just not made for that. maybe your not good enough to be on varsity." ... my dad seems to be the only one that understands me. Lady Wetzel and my mom are just like well.. stay up with them, problem solved. but thats not how it works! i still like it and everything, but idk.. its hard to always come in last when we're at practice. and i think that splitting up the varsity with everyone else isnt that good cuz that makes us less of a team. and my leg is bothering me a lot. im walking around skool limping and everyone looks at me like im some sort of retard.
.. another thing thats been hard for me lately is like keeping faith in God. i havent been able to go to church much lately cuz on wednesdays i just have too much hw, and on saturdays, i have races, and i get really tired. but not going to church is not the problem...and neither is peer pressure. im not getting much of that. i like having the reputation of having God in my life. The problem is my family.. they dont encourage me to go to church at all, they rather me just not. and my mom only thinks i look cute when im dressed like a hoe. its soo annoying. i mean, i can keep faith, cuz i know what my goal is in life. i know my morals and values, and im gunna follow them, i just wish my family was behind me, encouraging me. you know?
and then i was talking to Robbyn while we were running, and she and i have the same religion and beliefs, so i like talking to her about stuff. but she was talking to me about being in a relationship... and she was saying that she doesnt really understand why people our age are even in relationships, cuz really the whole point is to date the person that you would want to marry, and course we're not seriously thinking about that at our age, so idk. and she asked me if it would be hard for me to break up with Kenny and of course my responce was YES. but then she says that you know, if it would be hard for me to let go of a relationship then in her mind that means that i might have to requestion my faith, cuz its a sign of not being able to let go of worldly things. i completely understand what shes trying to say, but im not sure if i agree..i think Kenny and i have a wholesome relationship, and i like that. i like that he doesnt pressure me into things, and i just dont have to worry with him. i can make it known that im a Christian and not feel uncomfortable. so what exactly would be the point of breaking up with him? why couldnt i be happy with him, and be a good Christian at the same time? any ways.. things like that are stressing me out a little.
well.. onto today..
today was good all in all.. but when i got home it kinda stunk. i wanted to go somewhere with Brittany cuz we havent done much together lately, and then i forgot that i promised my dad that i would go out to dinner with him.. so then i had to call her and say i couldnt do anything..so i go out with my dad and when i get home she invited me to the homecoming game, and i was all excited cuz i really really wanted to go, but i was trying to find someone who would go with me.. but then my dad told me no because i might get home late and i need sleep cuz i have a race tomorrow. but, wutever.
and tomorrows the homecoming dance.. I REALLY WANTED TO GO! but i had to get concert tickets for the same freakin day! but oh well.. im going to the concert with Kenny, so at least ill be with him, and we'll have another chance to go to a dance together... this concerts kinda a one in a lifetime chance.
well.. thats all for today..
xOxO..SaNdRa*
